Our heavenly Father understands our disappointment, suffering, pain, fear, and doubt. He is always there to encourage our hearts and help us understand that He’s sufficient for all of our needs. When I accepted this as an absolute truth in my life, I found that my worrying stopped. – Charles Stanley
Disappointment, fear, pain, doubt etc … a very dangerous bag of emotions, nevertheless, it can happen, and does happen, to anyone.
I always saw my mom as a fighter – she fought all sorts of challenges in her life, from health, wealth to relationships. Again, as we all do at some point or another.
For some reason however, after 20 days of reflecting on her life throughout this blessed month, I have arrived at quite an interesting hurdle and wonder, what did these challenges do to her on the inside?
I think I know what it did on the outside, and I can only guess what it did to her on the inside, but I can’t for sure answer this question – and I am not sure if I ever will, as she is no longer here to answer.
Unfortunately, I do not myself have an answer to this, and instead, leave the question out there for you to think about and for god to reveal the answer to us during this blessed third of Ramadan, and in an ever so timely fashion, the third of salvation:
What to do when you wake up one day and find that you are carrying this bag?
Where do you go?
How do you move?
I think the answer lies around hope, belief, resilience, etc… but it remains unclear.
I hope that by the end of this month, and whatever further reflections I have of my mother and with god’s help, we all can answer these questions.
At the start of these blessed 10 days, I ask god to give us the patience to see his signs unravel as he decides on our affairs in what benefits us.
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